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Wednesday, 13 January 2016

○new year● new resolutions○

Time lapsed, today is the 13th day of 2016 dy. Unbelievably, i am going to step into 21y/o, i am not ready yet. It still has a long way to go to be more mature,to be a adult. Yet, i have listed out few resolutionssss as the targets of the year. I wish i could keep the fire until the end, putting forth every effort to exceed my own expectation, even though i have told myself not to expect too much, i have to try. Yes, at least at the end i can comfort myself by saying that: i've tried, tried hard tim.

Gonna have my final soon, surprisingly,i have started my revision since last year. It is such a big improvement for me to prepare an exam. Stressful enough :/  but i have no choice, i have to force myself, i want to be better, i have to be better! Be B.E.T.T.E.R!

My english lecturer gave me a D in a summary. Shit. How dare she gave me that fk'in grade in a summary?! Instead of copying and pasting, anything else i have missed out? She dont even give a proper reason/ reasonable excuse ... :( i wish she is not the only marker who mark my final paper. Finger crossed. 😒😈

Just handed in the educational material this morning. Huh, i've met a awesome partner and a group of rubbish groupmate ._.  Complaining doesn't help, but 我到底意难平! This is just an opening, i knew it. I knew that i am going to face hundreds thousands millions of different kind of ppl. I know! I know!i know! Pleaseeee i just want to be myself, i juat want to back to those naive timessss, feeling so suck weihhh. My heart is sobbing, now. ;'(  i am slothful and tired on facing all fake smiling faces, i am mentally physically exhausted, indeed.

I think i'm having a crush on a boy. rHAhahahahhahahahahhahahahhahahajahahhahahahahahhahaha.obviously, I'd got over my school girl crush. This time gonna be the right person? TT i am worried. Zhen de hen pa. WHat should i do. I dont even know his name. Dont know his age. Dont know his course. DOnt know is he noticed me. DOnt know is it a right choice. DOnt know everything TT. Who should i talk with? I have been tried crushing for 4 years. 4years!!! How long would be this time last for? I dont want! ;( haihhhhhhhhhhhh arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh jiu ming ahh wo hen fan nao afffffffff kaoshi arhhhhhhh study break arhhhhhhhhhhh 2016 nian dy lehhh, be more mature can ma? 😭



2016 gonna be a good year. Fighting!!!! 
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1 comment:

  1. AHhahhahahhah i gt his name!!! I am so happy, flying to the sky,nope, is touching the sky.He is going to graduate :'( i wish that he noticed me TT ahhaahhahahahahhahah wtf am i doing here, haih feeling so bad to know his things actually,like i am too far from him,we are totally two worlds people,his friends are so perfect and i...hmm this realization kills me. Albeit i am trying my best to be better and better, will u wait me? :") C.Lim

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